Light and Darkness

Rosemary's Reward

A $5000 reward is now being offered for information leading to an arrest in my dear's disappearance or her discovery. No matter where you live, please share this on your Facebook, blogs, sites, with friends, anywhere. In my years on this earth, I've learned that the world is not a very big place. We are linked by smaller circles than we think. So, please share. It's not a place I want to wish upon any person. That uneasy, unrestful place of limbo when your loved one is missing. Thank you for any prayers you have given the Universe on Rosemary's behalf. Thank you.

Rosemary, I miss you. I love you. I want to know you for the rest of our lives. If I can't have that, then I want to know you can come home to peace.

And the young woman in this video is my other sister, Bonnie. I love her dearly and am in awe of how strong she has been for her parents throughout this. She's an amazing person that I am getting to know and am proud to claim as a sibling.

Sunday, January 1, 2012

Happy New Year!

This year let's promise each other to say the words we're too frightened to say because we're afraid of feeling them alone.....before they become words we're too frightened that we don't have enough time to say them.

What about me?

I'm not a fucking saint. I'm tired of postponing what I want and desire. Fuck the other people who need Z!

I need him!

Does that count for any goddamn thing?!

 

Fin

My last chat with Z was tonight. I can't help but be mad at God for taking away so many good things in my life. I shouldn't be selfish. Z has a far greater future helping others not be like me. I should be happy with the thought that others will have a man in their lives that will care a great deal for them. Far better for the world.

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still very pissed and sad and will be for a very long time

Christmas 2011

I hope this holiday finds everyone is a happy place. I pray for Christmas miracles for every one. I pray for good health and love. I pray for peace in the world and in each of our hearts, where peace has to begin.

I pray that sadness doesn't overhwhelm you because you are alone, you are strapped for cash, or you are fighting whatever demons you are fighting. I don't have much to give....actually I have nothing. But if there is something I can give you, please ask. I only ask in return that you are in a safe place and you give yourself and the world, and ultimately as a gift to me, another day to figure things out.

Blessed Christmas. Merry Holidays. Happy Midwinter....Peace on earth. Goodwill toward men.