100

Go through enough blogs and you'll find a few "100 things about me." This is not one of those...well not really.The most debilitating thing in my life is not bipolar. I think I could probably deal with that on a level playing field. Most wouldn't even know that I have it. I'm a high-functioning bipolar. I've probably one of the worst self-esteems you can imagine. I've started a list of 100 things that define me and I like. I've only 22 so far. It's a difficult thing for me. And I'm coming up with it alone. It's wonderful when people compliment me. (I need to hear those.) Unfortunately I need to believe my own words. But you CAN help. Although I have to come up with the 100, I could use the support to do it. Hey, I'd be accountable if I make note of it and then don't. Right? They are silly. They are little. But they make up me..and sometimes I forget me. And I think deep inside the core of me, I actually do like me. So, here I go:

1)I love my curly hair and that people have to touch it and comment on how much there is. 2)I eat french fries with mayonnaise..on the side so I can dip. 3)The rain makes me happy. 4)I like extremely hot showers and don't take baths...sitting in scalding water makes me light-headed and nauseous. 5)I hate swimming in warm water. It has to be cool/cold or I feel I'm swimming in spit. 6)I smoke a cigar every few months just because. 7)I love pens, papers and journals. 8)I always look for Orion in the night sky. 9)I smell people when they're close/walk by. 10)I like being tall and wearing heels makes me feel sexier. 11)I like to compliment people especially strangers. 12)Being surrounded by books automatically lifts my spirits/calms me. 13)I look at the ground for frogs and walls/trees for lizards. 14)I always have a kite in my car ready for use. 15)I like animal noses. 16)I like to name trees/plants. 17)I use chopsticks regularly. 18)When I go out to eat, I always get two drinks including an iced water. 19)I carry my journal always. 20)I like to play with yo-yos and have a few. 21)I like my first, middle and nicknames. 22)Best place of a pillow is the cold spot underneath where I can put my hands.

Comments

[Naomi]

Thank you very much, onestrangecat! I appreciate that. I think everyone should make a list. It's so easy to come up with the things we don't like about ourselves. I'm working on the next few now so a new posting will be up soon.
original comment from 12/14/03 2:24 AM

[onestrangecat]

Your list is not silly. Maybe some of the things seem little, but aren't we all made of millions of "little" things? I like your list. Keep adding to it, you are doing a great job! I fell the same as your #7, #12. #3
original comment from 12/13/03 5:32 PM