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Seems Dan likes to hide behind anonymous postings and fake addresses as much as under white sheets.
With fuckers like him, who needs enemies?! The twat comments on a blogger's post of the Hurricane Katrina disaster and relief efforts. Karma baby. Dan will get his....the shit that he is. I don't doubt.
Yes, I went to work. And yes, it was a clumsy night.
Last Sunday, I burned myself on my right arm. Touched the bottom of the popcorn kettle. Second degree burn. Blistered. And since then, I have accidentally SCRAPED skin off the burn. I have no doubt that I'll have a lovely scar.
Tonight....well, I almost dropped the entire kettle on myself. The damn thing fell out of its hinges into the popcorn. I pulled my bloody arm away in time. Eck! I hit my head in the stockroom. I kept spilling BOILING water every where when I had to close and clean the poppers. Banged the hell out of my burn nearly every chance I got.
I was weepy tonight. Actually cried a couple of times. Feeling ugly and crappy. Also feeling loved and trying to ignore the ugly, crappy sentiments. Need a hug. Need a kiss. Need some serious snuggling.
HVAC people will be here later this morning (it is sometime after 2 a.m.). I was told that they should be out of my house by the time I leave for work. I hope so. I don't like leaving strangers in my home. I have no choice though, do I?
Lots of "missing you" in my soul.
Am very tired. Will probably go to bed in a few moments. Need the sleep. I open the concession stand tomorrow/today/something like that. Then a double on Saturday. My next day off is Monday, and it can't come soon enough.
Just want to go on a picnic. A lovely picnic under the perfect tree.
sigh.....
Alrighty, then. Tired. Going to bed. Hope I am not late in rising. Em needs to get to school on time.
Don't want to work tonight. Picked up a supervisor shift because the guy scheduled to work was called to the military sooner than expected. Sooooo, not many people in the work pool that I can call to cover my shift.
I just want to stay home and clean the house. Feeling a bit sad but nothing to panic about. Not sure where it's stemming from. Think it may be from the anti-depressant. I have no mood stabilizer to help so perhaps taking the Zoloft alone causes issues? Don't know. I don't know much about the side effects of it. I do know that the damn drug has been wreaking havoc on my libido. I have been in the mood to do it. Hell, I could fuck at a drop's notice but I haven't been able to orgasm. Um, frustrating. May be fun for a little bit but eventually going and going and going can get tiring.
Decided to stop taking the Zoloft until I can get the Topamax back, which is in the works. Until then, I want to enjoy my sexual experiences....THANK YOU VERY MUCH! I know moaning is a much better sound when followed with "I'M CUMMING!!!!"
House is a mess. Well, something that's not too terribly bad. Instead of cleaning up a bit like I should...I'm typing away at the damn computer. My mom is bringing a HVAC guy to the house tonight. My heating/ac unit has been dead for months now. Need to have a somewhat cleaner place.
Really don't want to work tonight. Have forced myself to go to work for a couple days now. Would rather stay home and play. Eh, it's good for me. I'm going. Don't worry. Need the money. Besides...can't play tonight. Eck!
So....going to clean. Maybe. In a few minutes. After the email check.....and maybe some lurking.
...the connection of internet at home. TA DA!!!! I am back online at the ol' homestead. How freakin great is that?! So Happy. SO VERY HAPPY!!!! I will haunt the internet world with a vengence. AHHHHA HA HA HA HA HA. AHH HAAAAA HAAAA HAAAAAAAAAAA *cough cough*
Ok, need to mute the excitement. Bit overzealous. Sorry. Anyways....I'm back. YIPPEE!!!!
My life has been moving so quickly along in such a magnificent way.
Work has been kind. Hell, more than that. I made supervisor and the general manager likes me. Quote: "You forever stole my heart on Memorial weekend." New site is being constructed as I type and intended to open next summer. By then, I intend to be a manager.
Went out on Friday night with a guy. Yes, an actual (kind-of) date. Nice to get out and have a few drinks and relax among the other mortals of this world. Good conversation with a nice guy. Stayed out much longer than I should have.....AND caught a lot of hell on that. So, despite the nice night out....somewhat not worth it. Still (boy, the "excepts" in this paragraph are too much), it felt nice to be admired whilst out.
I have been catching quite a number of eyes, actually. Feels good. I think perhaps when you feel right with the world and the fantastic joys in your life, you send out a vibe that screams "NOTICE ME! I'M A WOMAN WITH IT ALL!" Hell, that's a hard thing to ignore especially coming from a goddess like myself.
Ok, yes. I have been fucking annoying with the sappy lovey doviness that is me. AND I don't see it ending for lifetimes to come. It's a freakin great state to be in. I have only one query of God when we have our sitdown....Why did it take sooo long?! Yes, I know the answer. Timing.
I have to say that I found what I had lost from my pocket. I know. I know. And I am overwhelmed with the peace and serenity and love and security and joy that has been brought back to me.
In a breath, my world has righted itself.
The Fnurgler
That's right. I am so unbelievably happy with life. And I don't think this is going to end for eons. I don't intend for it to end for eons. I never thought I would feel this content in any portion of my life. Honestly....You've all read the posts. Many of you have spoken to me. It's changed. God, it has changed.
Life is good and it's finally feeling delicious to accept that I can have that good feeling permanently. It's overwhelming to realize that the ends of sappy love stories make so much more sense.
Yeah....liking this feeling. Getting quite used to this feeling. Never letting this feeling escape me.
Ever want that elusive happiness you thought only the lucky ones experienced? Hmmm...Yeah. I think I'm one of the lucky ones.
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