untitled tonight

I was scheduled to work tonight. I actually made it there, although I was fifteen minutes late. I was there for fifteen minutes when I couldn't do it any longer. I told the other managers that I didn't feel well and asked to be excused. Came home.

When things get this bad, I don't want to be around anyone. I just want to find myself surrounded by my own familiar space or among complete strangers. I can't stand being with people who know me. I much prefer if I have to be near others to be unknown and faceless among a sea of faces. The sweetest would be absolutely alone. Perhaps covered in water. I take LOTS of showers when I'm like this because I wish I were swimming in a pool and I can't do that.