One Week

Last time I talked to him was last Saturday. I told myself that I was going to leave him alone. I told him that I was saying good-bye....and yet I sent him a text moments ago. WHAT THE HELL IS WRONG WITH ME?!

I'm doing what I think is right by removing myself from his life. God, I'm emotionally fucked. And without him, I can't focus. I think of him all day long. I move about my hours trying to live and then for a brief second, he comes into my brain. And I'm devastated without him. It takes what seems like forever to recuperate.

I feel like a freakin stalker or obsessive fuck. BUT how can anyone go from declaring love and foreverness to 'ok, so let's never speak to each other again.' Every dream from last night (that I remember) had him in it. And they were good ones where he loved me and couldn't stop hugging me.

My heart is beating too fast.

I miss him. I love him.

Am I an idiot? Crazy? Insane? Can I start over? Can we start over?

Comments

[Kris]

You're not the only one Naomi. I know it'll take some time. I'm kinda in the same boat and no matter what I do, just can't get that person out of my mind. And to think, we were just together for like three days.

It is tough. It might take some time, all I can really say. The hurt will never go away but it will be something bearable sooner or later. Hugs..

[Naomi]

Thank you, Ady. I appreciate the boost of support. I hate seeming like a whiney, stereotyped girl. Just hard, you know. But thanks. Trying to get occupy my mind with other things.

[Ady]

It's completely normal to feel this way after a break-up. I suggest you take up a new hobby and things will not be immediately better, but... It'll get better (or less harder) with time. One day, you'll think back on it and won't even find a reason for obsessing over him...

Do yourself a favor... Don't dwell on someone who's not worth it! You WILL find a guy that is worth it, and that won't screw up the relationship.

Just to let you know that someone cares.