Apparently, I have this little place on the internet called Light and Darkness. And apparently, I like to neglect it, having last visited over a month ago.
Really no reason. We've had some minor trauma in our lives over here. Namely, both my daughter and I are having life crisis. Em's stems from being a girl entering the devil's lare, commonly called adolescence. Mine appears to be the beginning of my mid-life "WHO THE FUCK AM I?!" or sometimes called "Waaaa. I'm getting old and I've done nothing thus far." Yeah, the two don't go well together. I think teenagers may be onto something having children when they are only twelve years old. When their daughters hit puberty, teenage moms will be still young and spirited and clueless about the world. They'll be able to handle the mood swings with gusto because they don't have freaking biological clocks and menopause sneakily hanging around the corner.
Well, I'm still here. I've actually been ignoring this place on purpose. Bit embarrassing to explain so I won't. I'm just feeling unaccomplished in my life in all areas right now. I'm getting very close to the latter half of my life and want so much more; and I've no mojo to get what I want. The most depressing bit about this all is that I think that's my personality. I want things yet don't make any effort to get any of it.
How do any of you motivate yourself to go after what you want or deserve or need?