I'm going to keep this brief because I actually get uncomfortable talking about my body here, which is why I generally don't. Over the last few months, I've been losing weight. I'm not going to say how much or how or what I weigh nor or weighed then. I'm embarrassed that I'm fat. I hate that I have been that chick that you either don't want to become (women) or you wouldn't even consider dating (men). Eh!
As I lose weight, my body changes. I like it. BUT the bad thing is that my self-image hasn't changed. I actually think I'm getting fatter. I am more aware of how huge I am. I know I'm suffering from some form of dysmorphic body image. Always have....no, I'm not a clinical psychologist but my self-image and self-esteem are obsessive sorts of subjects for me. Anyways, I feel the change in my body. The tell-tale sign is how clothes fit or don't anymore. Friends around me asking me constantly if I'm still losing weight. So yes....I am changing. But still.....eh!
Having gone on for two paragraphs now about all that shit: I have become less shy of the camera and self-portraits. I've taken them...almost with Friday Kahlo obsession but now I want to see the photos of me. To see the changes. I still don't like full body shots. Eh!
Here's one of my favorites.
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