I've been having dreams and thoughts of twin sons lately. Last night I had a strange dream about my pregnancy with them. As usual I don't recall all the details, but their father had to make a tough decision about sacrifice in order to save our lives. He altruisically agreed to give his life so that we could live. He had waited his whole life to be a dad but he loved us so much that the sacrifice wasn't a second thought. And answering this devil, alien, reaper, whatever it was, spared all of us including the guy.
I did dream about the conception of the boys and the big reveal of my pregnancy....and strangely, the ultrasound telling us we were having twins. This was an epic dream.
UGH! These dreams and thoughts have been occurring for months now. I see these boys in my mind's eye and it's killing me! Stupid dreams and their stupid way of making me want. It doesn't help that every woman in this state is pregnant! The state's adopted pastime must be conceiving.
Yes. I am sad that I am getting older and the probability of no more children makes me sad. I'm not talking about this anymore.