Light and Darkness

Mood Indigo by Nina Simone

This woman is the shit. She and Ella are probably at the top of my heart list. Incidentally the High Priestess of Soul's birthday is this month (February 21) so we'll have a Nina Day!

You ain't never been blue, no, no, no
You ain't never been blue
Till you've had that mood indigo
That feeling goes stealing down to my shoes
While I just sit here and sigh
Go along blues

I always get that mood indigo
Since my baby said goodbye
And in the evening when the lights are low
I'm so lonely I could cry
For there's nobody who cares about me
I'm just a poor fool that's bluer than blue can be
When I get that mood indigo
I could lay me down and die

You ain't never been blue, no, no, no
You ain't never been blue
Till you've had that mood indigo
That feeling goes stealing down to my shoes
While I just sit here and sigh
Go along blues

In the Mausoleum by Beirut

Because Mental Illness Never Goes Away

I have been weeping and sad for days now. Every year before my birthday, I get more reflective and sadder than usual.

 

 

Dreaming by Loudon Wainright III

 

I'd rather be dreaming than living
Living's just too hard to do
It's chances not choices
Noises not voices
A day's just a thing to get through
Living's just too hard to do

I'd rather be dreaming than talking
There's nothing to hear or to say
With ears covered mouth closed
The world is opposed
Nothing gets in or away
There's nothing to hear or to say

I'd rather be dreaming than thinking
Thoughts are small comfort to me

Dreams might be pretend
But at least dreams end
And I just can't stop thinking you see
Thoughts are small comfort to me

I'd rather be dreaming than sleeping
Just sleeping you're just as well dead
In dreams I can fly
In dreams I don't die
That's why I lie here in this bed

Just sleeping you're just as well dead

I'd rather be dreaming

Big Girl (You are Beautiful) by Mika

I dare you not to dance!

I Am a Rock by Simon and Garfunkel

A winters day
In a deep and dark december;
I am alone,
Gazing from my window to the streets below
On a freshly fallen silent shroud of snow.
I am a rock,
I am an island.
Ive built walls,
A fortress deep and mighty,
That none may penetrate.
I have no need of friendship; friendship causes pain.
Its laughter and its loving I disdain.
I am a rock,
I am an island.

Dont talk of love,
But Ive heard the words before;
Its sleeping in my memory.
I wont disturb the slumber of feelings that have died.
If I never loved I never would have cried.
I am a rock,
I am an island.

I have my books
And my poetry to protect me;
I am shielded in my armor,
Hiding in my room, safe within my womb.
I touch no one and no one touches me.
I am a rock,
I am an island.

And a rock feels no pain;
And an island never cries.

when the oddest songs are on repeat in your head

I kid you not. This is what I woke up singing. Could there be a subliminal message in there?

By the way, I'm crushing on the guy singing. That's Jermaine Clement from Flight of the Conchords.

Walken Your Way Through Life

Love me some Christopher Walken. This is one of my favorite videos ever.

In Support

This country singer has penned the best lyrics for why our troops should pull out....ahem, sort to speak.

Littlest Things by Lily Allen

I admit: I am a YouTube addict. I have found so much crap on it to entertain me for years and years. Old videos (found Fish Heads by Barnes & Barnes), talking cats, and the like. When I started the category Emotional Clef, I was looking to just publish songs without the music. Present them as poetry representing how I felt at the moment. If you hadn't realized what this category was about, go back and look at the postings. When all else fails, sometimes other people's words can best describe your state of being.

I haven't felt like expressing myself in quite a while. There is nothing anyone can do until I get over some things. I feel like an idiot for not being in a better state of mind since I lost Angus and my dad. It's been a year and I should be further along in the grieving process. I think I am with my pop but there are times. With Angus? How do you get over losing someone you really believe is your soulmate? I love easily. It happens. But when I really love? Only twice in my life. And neither man are out of my system.

So...I give you Lily Allen. Of course, not all the same but the sentiment is there. And thanks to my daughter for introducing her.

I Don't Love You by My Chemical Romance

Well, when you go
Don't ever think I'll make you try to stay
And maybe when you get back
I'll be off to find another way

And after all this time that you still owe
You're still the good-for-nothing I don't know
So take your gloves and get out
Better get out
While you can

When you go
Would you even turn to say
"I don't love you
Like I did
Yesterday"

Sometimes I cry so hard from pleading
So sick and tired of all the needless beating
But baby when they knock you
Down and out
It's where you oughta stay

And after all the blood that you still owe
Another dollar's just another blow
So fix your eyes and get up
Better get up
While you can
Whoa, whooa

When you go
Would you even turn to say
"I don't love you
Like I did
Yesterday"

Well come on, come on

When you go
Would you have the guts to say
"I don't love you
Like I loved you
Yesterday"

I don't love you
Like I loved you
Yesterday

I don't love you
Like I loved you
Yesterday