So. We've been texting back and forth. Naughty texts and serious texts. Each time I send a text that relates to whether we can try again, I don't get a response. I'm actually awaiting one at the moment. I so wish that he would answer. OMG!!! He just answered. He said that maybe we could start with the whole dating thing. I am so extremely stoked!!! I know that there are some things in my life that I need to get straightened out before we can really have what we had before. This is such a good start, though. I so can't fuck this up again!! I'm going to set up counselling for Michael and I through one of the pastors at church. I think that that will help matters immensely. You just do not know how high I am soaring right now!! I have been hoping and praying for something like this for almost two weeks!! Thank you, God!! Next, I need to look into seeing if I can get assistance with rent. Having my own place, again, will be such a self-esteem booster and stress reliever. I really do think that things are looking up. I so want this to all work. I need it to. If it doesn't, then it's back to the dark, dismal pit of depression. I didn't much care for that. All of the crying I've done in the past couple of weeks has really sucked. The dark thoughts were not much fun, either. As much as I know that this is going to sound hippocritical and all, I do believe that my faith is what has kept me going. I knew that God would never give me more than I could handle, and that if it was all meant to be, then it would happen again. I need to update my myspace page. It's pretty sad right now. I need to put my hearts and stuff back up. Maybe I'll do butterflies. Not sure. I need to update my status on both myspace and facebook. So much to do, so little time. I also need to call Kimmie and see if she wants to have a couple of beers with me. I made her a CD that I need to bring to her. Later!!!! I love life right now. Oh...almost forgot. I am getting ready to contact the Governor, the Attorney General, and my State Rep concerning Michael's dad and his failure to pay child support. Life is good.
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