I wonder how many single moms out there find it so hard to stay in relationships. I think that Aaron is getting ready to break up with me again. I really don't think that I could handle it this time. I told him that I don't want to lose him again. My heart couldn't take it. I love him so much. Michael and I are starting counselling on Wednesday. I just want him to give me enough time to try to work things out. I am making a huge effort. Can't he see that I'm not just doing this for myself? I'm doing this for US. I am trying so hard to make things easier and better for us. I'm trying to get out of my parents' house. I'm trying to make things right between my son and I. I am trying to get things in order. I am trying so hard to just keep it all together. Can't he even fucking see how hard I'm trying, how much I love him? I need this to work. I need him to be there. I just fel like I'm walking on eggshells lately. I'm afraid that something I say or do is going to just make him want to leave me again. I have to tell him how I feel. I'm trying to do everything I can to make this relationship so much better than it was before. He just needs to give me a fucking chance. I'm driving myself insane wondering if tomorrow is going to be the day that he breaks my heart again.
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