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A Possible Ray of Light??

So.  We've been texting back and forth.  Naughty texts and serious texts.  Each time I send a text that relates to whether we can try again, I don't get a response.  I'm actually awaiting one at the moment.  I so wish that he would answer.  OMG!!!  He just answered.  He said that maybe we could start with the whole dating thing.  I am so extremely stoked!!!  I know that there are some things in my life that I need to get straightened out before we can really have what we had before.  This is such a good start, though.  I so can't fuck this up again!!  I'm going to set up counselling for Michael and I through one of the pastors at church.  I think that that will help matters immensely.  You just do not know how high I am soaring right now!!  I have been hoping and praying for something like this for almost two weeks!!  Thank you, God!!  Next, I need to look into seeing if I can get assistance with rent.  Having my own place, again, will be such a self-esteem booster and stress reliever.  I really do think that things are looking up.  I so want this to all work.  I need it to.  If it doesn't, then it's back to the dark, dismal pit of depression.  I didn't much care for that.  All of the crying I've done in the past couple of weeks has really sucked.  The dark thoughts were not much fun, either.  As much as I know that this is going to sound hippocritical and all, I do believe that my faith is what has kept me going.  I knew that God would never give me more than I could handle, and that if it was all meant to be, then it would happen again.  I need to update my myspace page.  It's pretty sad right now.  I need to put my hearts and stuff back up.  Maybe I'll do butterflies.  Not sure.  I need to update my status on both myspace and facebook.  So much to do, so little time.  I also need to call Kimmie and see if she wants to have a couple of beers with me.  I made her a CD that I need to bring to her.  Later!!!!  I love life right now.  Oh...almost forgot.  I am getting ready to contact the Governor, the Attorney General, and my State Rep concerning Michael's dad and his failure to pay child support.  Life is good.

Guion Creek Middle School Alumni

Ok, I've tried and tried, but I can't seem to find anything about an old classmate.  His name is Robert Austin Bailey.  His birthday is July 8th or 9th, 1973.  He went to Guion Creek Middle School in Indianapolis, IN.  He probably graduated from Pike High School in 1991.  I think that he probably went to Purdue after that.  We were really good friends.  We kept in touch for a few years, but then I lost track of him.  He was always able to make me laugh.  If anyone knows anything about him, please let me know.  The last time I was looking for an old classmate, I decided to "google" him.  Bad idea.  I found out that the guy was shot outside of a convenience store.  That blew.  Worst part was that he was one of those guys that started out kinda dorky, but ended up becoming pretty hot.  What a waste.  Well, if you know the whereabouts of anyone who might be between the ages of 31-33 that went to Guion Creek, get back to me.