Christ and A Dream

I had a nightmare Tuesday night that left me scared to my core. I don't recall all the aspects of it save for a few moments.

I was standing behind Christ's left side about a hundred feet. He was crucified and still alive. The amount of energy I felt in my soul leads me to believe that I saw the entire Passion played out before that moment. I was terribly upset and think I was crying hysterically. I recall that there were some people there but have details of who. I was fixed on watching Jesus. Then he turned to look at me, straining his neck to face me. He was dirty and bloody and quite sad. There was accusation in his eyes. Then suddenly he was beheaded. His decapitated head rolled to my feet. I was screaming.

I woke up at this point and was scared of what was in the house. I was afraid of the dark and what it held. I wandered from my room to the living room where I felt safer to sleep. I quickly forced myself to think of other things before my eyes slid shut. My heart was racing. My face and chest ached like I had been crying hard for hours. But the worse feeling was that Jesus was royally pissed at me. That he was going to find me and take revenge. And I never felt more responsible in my life.

I only felt responsible when he looked at me. Until that point, I felt removed. I was weeping over his torture. I was upset that people, other people not me, had done this to him.

I'm fearful of my religious dreams. I have them often and they are not pleasant. They mostly contain demons and the lot.

Comments

[Naomi]

Cathy,

No need to apologize. You're welcome to jump on by here whenever you feel like it and give your thoughts and such.

Gye Nyame literally means 'except God.' It's African and pronounced jeh-N-yah-mee. I like to explain that it discusses the three Os of God: omnipotence, omniscience, and omnipresence.

As a child, I may have been a little frightened of Christ but not as an adult. There is definitely an interpreation or metaphor in that dream.

[Cathy]

Hey! I don't know you...I realise that! And I haven't even read all your entries. Just wanted you to know that Jesus doesn't look at you with an accusing look in his eyes...that defeats the purpose. In fact it's completely opposite of what he was/is about! I don't know you...don't know what you've done that makes you hate yourself so much, but I do know that Jesus doesn't hate you...in fact the opposite...he loves you! And I'm so pissed off with Christians who make people feel like shit, and like you're supposed to be perfect to be a Christian. The whole point of Christianity is that we're not perfect and never will be. That's the whole point...that's the reason Jesus died on the cross...because we're messed up and can't do it right. And He didn't die so that we could be better (I think that might happen on the side) but so we could hang out with him. So we could know him. AGH!!!! I hate when Christians try to make out that they are in some way better than everyone else...they've got it completely wrong. Sorry I'll get off the soapbox!

Jesus is not someone to be scared of...I'm sorry He's been made out that way.

PS I'm not in the habit of reading other people's blogs, I was trying to find out what gye nyame meant. What does it mean?