In my mind, I keep refreshing my recent behavior with Z and am not proud of my temperment. Do other people have such a hard time ending their relationship with their psychiatrist? I think I'm upset that he's so casual about it. I know I'm one of hundreds of people he's seen and a drop in the bucket for the thousands more he'll have in his career. It makes me feel like an idiot for clinging so tightly.
I have become so frightened of living over the last couple of years. Z made it easier to deal with things. I really am nervous about going it alone.
But...I'm just making a big deal about a stupid professional relationship with a psychiatrist. I really need to move on. Opportunities, right?!
For sanity sake, I'm not writing about him anymore. Moving on.
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